Take the good with the bad. Not everyone will know, but that's ok

So I already posted a blog a little while ago, but I not only want to use these blogs to spread awareness but for my own Diabetic therapy as I would like to call it. So if you read my previous post you already know that my blood sugar was dropping rapidly. Well I didn't mention that I'm at work while this is happening. Hard thing is that us Diabetics have to work too, we just gotta remind people that sometimes we need more breaks than the average person, but it's hard to remind people of this. So after I posted I realized that is was time to drink a juice so I did, but I felt a bit panicky because my sensor said I was still dropping a good while after I drank it. When I walked back to talk to one of the member service employees that I supervise, her and I are real close so I told her how I was feeling and she gave me a cookie. Scary thought came to my mind though, I thought about if I were to collaspe, what will happen? It still said that it was dropping, I still felt panicky, what if? What if I collapse?! starting playing in my mind, but I talked to my co-worker and I was telling her about my emergency needle and I told her, "I give you permission that if I collaspe and start to seizure, you can give me that needle." I love her, she cares and listens and that matters to me. That is what Diabetics need sometimes. I told her I have to go to the restroom real bad so I started walking, but she said, "Megan that might be dangerous?" She's right, I need to tell someone where I am, It's important. So I did, just in case. I started feeling better after that and it now said that my blood sugar was no longer dropping.
Right after that though I ran into a supervisor above me and they said,"did you see the soccer people playing?" and I said yea. Then they preceeded with saying, "well you might want to close the doors." Not realizing the feelings and thoughts that I just had in my mind a couple of minutes ago and not realizing that my blood sugar was rapidly dropping, that's why I didn't notice. That was the reason.

I thought for a minute and I could of responded in anyway, but instead I said, "ok". The point i'm trying to make is you have to take the good with the bad in moments. I have the support of that co-worker and she understood because I had time to tell her, but the other worker really just didn't know what was going on. As a Diabetic I do get the feelings sometimes where I wish someone could just read my face and tell if my blood sugar is low, like my mom. But that is not reality and I've come to terms with that in a way, but i'm still working on it.

Much can be said the same for if anyone is not feeling well in a particular day and someone isn't understanding why you didn't do something. The only difference is my disease plays on the fear of me losing my life. I try not to dwell on that thought, but in that particular moment today it popped in my head and a thought is a hard thing to let go of sometimes.

So smile it's not all bad
Thanks for reading~the optimistic diabetic

Wearing the glucose sensor

So first off I've just discovered that I probabuly need to hit save before I make a post because otherwise it doesn't post the right time I posted it. See I'm learning!

Story of the day is that today I'm wearing my glucose sensor which lets me keep a better eye on my blood sugars by it constantly monitoring them. So I had another high blood sugar today which I'm not proud of so i.e. I thought I need to put that fricken sensor in. The reason I wasn't wearing it yesterday is because it honestly got on my nerves because days prior when I went to put it in, too much blood came through the tubing and I got annoyed with because I didn't have another one and I knew that, that was not going to work. So anyway blood sugar was too high today so I took some insulin, but I was eating out so this time I tried to take more than usual in my guessing. Well right now I'm feeling funny and that was several hours ago. Without the sensor I wouldn't be able to tell exactly what my blood sugar is doing, but since I have it on I can tell that it is rapidly dropping by the down arrow shown on my insulin pump so Huh! that's why I feel like this! It's been dropping for a while now...so my guess is I took too much insulin this time. My glucose sensor at the moment says that my blood sugar is around 109 and still dropping and seeing as the blood sugar reading it gives me is always some points off I can tell that my actual reading is lower than that. Thanks to the sensor I can tell that I'm gonna need to drink a juice real soon.

Thanks for reading~the optimistic diabetic <3

I don't like this guessing game

I have type 1 Diabetes. I wanted to create this blog to spread awareness about Diabetes as a whole. This is my first post so bare with me.
 So actually, I just had to stop writing because as I was putting this together I was starting to think that my blood sugar was high, just a feeling because before my mom left for the store she said that she was gonna get dinner and I said I wasn't hungry. Why wouldn't I be hungry? It is about 7:30pm and I ate lunch at 2:00pm, common sense should of told me something right away, but I honestly just don't know sometimes what my blood sugar is doing. It has a mind of its own. I just tested and guess what?! 345! My blood sugar was 345! Just to give you an idea, my blood sugar should be between the ranges of 70-120 to stay perfect, however I tend to have a lot in the high one hundred areas like 180 etc. Anyway 345 is way too high. I just took a needle of 4 units of insulin to bring it down. However, I wear an insulin pump, but when my blood sugar is that high I always prefer to take a needle because i think it brings it down quicker. I mess sometimes with my carbohydrate counting when I'm at college because I tend to eat out and certain places don't have the exact amounts of carbohydrates listed for what I'm about to eat so as usual, I guess. Well I guessed wrong today, but it's not my fault, you honestly can't always tell how many carbs are in certain foods. I'll just try harder next time.
Well I honestly didn't know when I started to write this what I would write about, but when I tested my blood sugar I was like UGH, then I was like I might as well get something positive out of this. I figured I'll tell you guys about it. I want you to know what it's like. I know you can't fully understand if you are not a type 1 Diabetic, but if your willing to read my story and you gain interest, just think you may be able to help someone else like me or you may run across another type 1 Diabetic in your lifetime and be like "Hey I think I know what your talking about" and believe me as a type 1 Diabetic, it is comforting to hear that.

So if you choose to read more of my blogs, just know that I truly appreciate it.

Thanks for reading
~the optimistic diabetic <3